Well it’s been over s week since my last post. The reason being is I had an operation on my arm. It’s been very tough. Dealing with the pain is one thing but having to deal with not being able to look after my boys is another thing.
If it it wasn’t for my family seriously I wouldn’t know how we would cope.
Anyway onto to some happy news now. My boys have featured on the front page of NHS Lanarkshires monthly magazine The Pulse. It’s amazing. So proud of my boys including husband. As a result of this a reporter from The Sunday Post contacted us and they also want to run their story. So the story has been written and a photographer came out yesterday and took the boys pictures. We were expecting it to run today but unfortunately it must be next Sunday so keep a wee eye out for my superstars.
My wee lion cubs turn the big 1 this week. Wow what a year. Doesn’t seem that long ago I was taking the above pic and looking forward to the next stage of pregnancy. Then only 5 days later the boys made an appearance. The boys were weighed this week and Lewis is 19lb 7oz and Logan is 19lbs 15oz this just blows my mind. As they were 1lb 7oz and 1lb 11oz when they were born. What a journey it has been. I still hear the beeps of the machines at night I honestly don’t think those sounds will ever leave me
I had my first case of overprotective mother this week also. The boys had their neuro developmental check up st hospital. The Physio put cubes inside a cup and waited for Lewis to take these cubes out. He picked up cub looked inside it and tipped the contents over the floor. She then turns to her colleague and said he didn’t do it. I asked what she meant as I saw him do it as well as she did but apparently they were wanting him to pick the cubes out one at a time. I was like wtf???!! He did it. Just because it wasn’t the way you wanted it doesn’t mean he didn’t do it. The Physio found this hilarious as it really got my back up. She said ah there is the protective mammy lion coming out. Lol. Overall the boys did well. Lewis has the problem of trying to do things too fast and ironically Logan is the complete opposite. He is too laid back and had already developed the man job of rubber earring you.
So this week will be a very busy week of preparations for the big birthday. They will have a wee party at nursery on Thursday (their actual birthday) does anyone else send their children to nursery/school on their birthday? My husband doesn’t think we should send them but they enjoy it so much I don’t want to take it away from them. They will also have a party at my parents on Saturday and hubs parents on Sunday. The advantage of having a big family is it’s impossible to fit everyone so the boys get 2 parties. Yay. 🙂
Scottish Twin Mamma
I do not co sleep with my boys but hubs and I do lie them in bed with us until they fall asleep then they get very gently transferred into their cot. This nightly ritual usually resembles something a black ops unit would be proud of. I think every parent channels their inner ninja when moving a sleeping baby – now try and imagine moving two!!
Tonight Lewis fell asleep downstairs and my usual elephant footed husband would’ve out danced tinkerbell with his light footed dance steps to get our boy in bed without waking him up. Mr Logan however, had different ideas. As if by magic his eyes opened wide before my husband had even begun his light footed dance. Our night time ritual is one of my favourite times of day. Lying in bed relaxing whilst cuddling our boys and singing some nursery rhymes. We sing the same songs but in different order each night, I would like to say this is because we like to keep it fresh and exciting but more often than not its just because we never remember what comes next. A firm favourite with our boys is alibalibee and row row row your boat. As Logan falls asleep he always needs to be touching you and has this kitten like quality of kneading your hand just as a kitten kneads into the belly of their mother. I don’t know if it is because of those 5 months spent in NICU or whether I would love this as much anyway but seriously my heart swells with love and pride every night.
This one ritual in past weeks has usually eased me of all the guilt and pain I feel over not being able to care for my boys due to my arm but tonight not only did those feelings not go away but they were amplified with fear. Today I found out that tomorrow I will be admitted to our local hospital to undergo an operation on Thursday in which a metal rod will be placed into the middle of the arm bone via my shoulder. This means I pretty much won’t see my boys until Friday and will miss our nightly routine that I have came to love and cherish so much. I miss my boys so much already and the thought of not seeing them for a few days is devastating me. The boys are still feeling under the weather so don’t think taking them into a hospital is the best idea unless they need to be there plus night time visiting falls at a time where my little munchkins will be getting fed and then settled to go to bed..
Both of the bogys got extra kisses and cuddles tonight and I dare say will get even more tomorrow – I know any excuse😄 I worked as a recovery nurse for 12 years and have every trust in the NHS and the procedure itself but this has not stopped the fear and worry seeping into my bones- no pun intended! It is not nice for a nurse to be on the wrong side of that theatre trolley and it’s completely true what they say “a little knowledge is a dangerous thing”
So on that note my lovelies, sleep tight and give your babies extra special kisses and cuddles tonight.
Sottish twin preemie mamma